Confused!!!

Why Why Why Why Why???....can't I shake this feeling??? I really don't want to feel this way but I can't help it. I can't help thinking about, dreaming about, hoping about. I'm trying to stay focused but I constantly find myself day-dreaming, being unproductive...just thinking about how much I want... All it takes is a small reminder, mention, or feeling...and I can't stop wondering. I've never been like this before and I don't like this feeling. Maybe if I knew it could never be I would be able to let this go...but with the idea that something might be keeps me holding on. From the things you say, the way you act...I know you are feeling the same way I do. What's the problem???...What are we waiting for??? I sort of feel stuck on stupid!!!!....because my mind say forget it...but something deeper in me isn't ready to let go. I've already said that I'm not going to focus on what coulda, shoulda, woulda happened...but in this moment I'm looking at what will happen if only we are bold enough to make it happen. I can't really get my thoughts together right now... I have so much going on and so little time to complete it all. I must let it go, at least for now...because how I am currently feeling is only being a hinderance to my progress.
Only God knows the future... I've done my best, God's will do the rest!