My Prayer...

It's crazy that all my people are experiencing the same things all around me. I talked to my best friend in New Orleans and she is going through, my people around me are going through, my girl back home is going through, I'M GOING THROUGH! Even through our situations are slightly different, I see one common thing. We all have a decision to make. Are we gonna take a stand for God or are we gonna compromise for...(him, a situation, an opportunity, or even a dream (22))? This has been a constant struggle, I mean a constant, repeated struggle for me...but everytime I have chosen God and I am so thankful. I refuse to compromise and I'm thankful. I've been rejected, but in that I'm thankful. I've been hurt so many times, but even in that I'm thankful. I've been lied to, cheated on, misused and abused...and yes, even in that I'm thankful. You are probably wondering why I can be thankful through any of this...well the reason is because even though I look back and remember all these things...I can find peace and happiness in the fact that through it all I lean on Jesus and that I never compromised what I believed in for anything or anybody. He might have hurt me but I remained true to my conviction, I could not take that internship because God told me to go home to Baltimore to work with an after-school program, people don't like me because I won't do certain things...oh well...I only need the approve of one!!!...and I got it...I try and do everything TO GOD'S GLORY...forget about man.

I have been wondering if I need to truly cut somethings off in my life ( sometime you can't even be 'friends' with those people anymore, you have to totally avoid those places)...wondering if I'm making the right decisions, wondering if what I feel is real (I know there is a reason I can't shake these feelings).

I pray always that "God will reveal, remove and restore."

Let me break this down for you...

Reveal...things, people, situations in my life that are not of God and that will hinder my growth and derail my destiny. So that I know what they are and I can take action to get the negative out of my life. How can you make things better if you don't know what is wrong.
Remove...things, people, situations in my life that are not of God and that will hinder my growth and derail my destiny. Being a person, we are lead often by our emotions, but if I put things in God's hands I have no choice in the matter...if God removes something from my life I can do nothing or saying anything to get it back. (So if he doesn't return my calls, he never calls, if you do talk to him he acts like he don't care...open your eyes!!! God has helped you get rid of something that was bad...God got him off so that you wouldn't have to 'try' and do it yourself.)
Restore...things, people, situations that are no longer in my life but will promote my growth and help me reach my destiny. Just like we can try and hold onto things that aren't good for us, we can push could things away. Have you ever heard someone say, "Oh, he's too nice, he's not for me." What??...so you got a man right infront of you that adores God, loves his family, is intelligent and to top it off is cute...get a grip girl. But you want Mister flashy car, big spender!!! Or what about that opportunity to intern in No-where, USA...you passed it up because that area wasn't exciting enough...but what about the opportunity. Maybe now you see that the experience would have outweighed the location...but the offer has been pulled off the table. But God can bring that offer back into your life.

Wow...I have so many emotions right now. I want be there, I want be here. I wanted this, I want that. I must just continue to pray...we all must just continue to pray. Because I know that through pray things happen!!! ...Imma have to write more later...I'm overwhelmed!