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In the words of my baby girl"You have to write a blog about it!"

What the ?????? Let me start by saying...F you, F you and F you somemore. Don't try and hit me up because I will ignore you...if you see me please act as if you don't...if it looks like I was smiling in your direction please don't be confused because I was actually smiling at the person behind you...Just act like you don't know me because I DON'T KNOW YOU!!!! Look at me sitting around wasting time, hoping, even praying that things could work out...and look what I get. I feel so stupid...wait oh no!!! I'm not stupid I'm trusting of others...what they say especially when they tell me they trying to do this or that and asking me to be patient with them. I'm a patient person when it comes to somethings...and in this situation I was actually willing to wait around and see how it all turned out. I'm so honest...I told you about my fears, my disappointments, my hurts...and all you did was be like everyone else...thank you very much for being like the others, being like the people in my past. It was really really cold outside today...I guess that's a sign that the heatwave is gone...just last week it was 80 degrees...today it felt like 40something (I'm taking that as a sign...of old things OUT...new things IN!!) . So, you miss me...really??? I'm a great person...for real??? You don't want me to be upset or hurt...for sure??? But in the end...because please believe this is the end...everything that you could have done to upset a person you did, everything you could have sad to elicit sad emotions you did them too... I'm feeling like beating down a few strangers just because and than I will beat down some other people because they deserve it... Why would you say things and really not mean them??? Why would you talk about the future when you are living for the here and now pleasures of life??? Ok...so you say...I've heard it before I catch attitudes...yes I do...and many of them I shouldn't, but most of them that are directed towards you are completely justified. I will not be used...or taken advantage of. I could be reading too much into what I read, and maybe it would be good to ask you about it...but I really don't feel like putting anymore energy into this relationship...cuz it really isn't a relationship if only one person is trying to make things happen and the other person is only giving lip service...save your words for the next one. Do I regret caring...no, not at all...because that's who I am. Will I care again...of course...just NOT FOR YOU!!! You are just trying to do you right now...I hope you are having fun with that...fun living the single life (ummmm...yeah ok)...sowing your wild oats (as they say). Aight...whatever I don't really have anything to say about...Do you, I'm happy for you. I wasn't even trying to be nothing too serious with you right away, I take my time, get to know people and evaluate the situation/relationship...all I wanted was some straight answers and whatnot. You were the one talking all that other, serious stuff... But it's alright I'm ok...I'mma be better than you ever other day!!! I'm done with this post...and I hope you read this and it cuts you up too!!! F you, F you and F you somemore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!