Tears

I'm not the type of person to wear my emotions on my sleeve. You most likely will never know if I'm hurt, upset or in pain...I'm not really sure why I'm like this...but this attitude was definitely developed during my early childhood. But this can be a really bad thing most of the time. When people ask me "What's wrong?" I always say "Nothing" because I feel telling people what's wrong with me will in some way burden them...and I don't want to be a burden. Also, I'm the strong one, everyone else's rock to lend on...I gotta keep that up or I will let others down and they might be dissappointed with me. These past couples of weeks have been very interesting for me emotionally. So many great times, laughter smiles and joy but mixed in with all of that I have been very sad. Saturday was my release...I cried Saturday...Not that booowhoo...ugly type crying. But tears fell and my eyes were a bit red. Alot of things contributed to the tears...maybe something or some people had a bigger contribution but all in all no one things or person was the cause. But I'm not upset that I cried...I'm somewhat relieved and happy that at least for one moment I could release emotions and I didn't allow my spirit to take the emotions in and allow myself to be drained. There are something that I want right now, some relationships I want to strengthen and develop, some opportunities I want to come my way...but I can't and won't let myself stress anymore. I'm falling back, I'm trying to release the stress and I may have to let a few more tears fall in the process. I'm thankful for the tears...