Change...

Did you know that is takes more muscles (meaning more energy) to frown than to smile? Than I thought to myself why do I stay having a mad look on my face??? There is no reason, I can say that's just the way I look, don't read anything into...but it takes less effort to have a pleasant look...so my goal is to be aware of my facial expressions and to aim to look as joyous as I feel. I've had so many breakthroughs over such a short period of time. I have held onto so much hurt, dissappointment, negativity and pain. But now I've let it go...I feel at peace. Who would have thought that the after someone told me that I always catch attitudes (a statement I have heard over and over again) I would finally hear them and understand what a major affect my negative attitude could have on other people. All this time people probably thought I was lashing out at them, but actually I was trying to defend myself and protect myself from hurt...never realizing how my attitude made me appear to others. I'm thankful for honesty...I'm thankful for friends, I'm thankful for family (especially my mother...she is my rock!) and most of all thankful for my relationship with God. Wow...a weekend to remember. I'm so excited right now that I have come to a place of maturity and understand like never before. Ya'll are going see a New 'Z'...not too different, but just warmer, more understand, slow to react and comment and quick to patience and tenderness. Change is good...I have always respected people who were bold enough, fearless enough, strong enough, beautiful enough, powerful enough to change...I'm taking inspiration from back in the day(22)...let's not be like the crowd...let's set the standard and allow others to try and follow.