Perfect Words

Oh wow...I need people to stop being all up in 3311 Powelton Ave... I got a double dose of truth yesterday. I was on the edge of my seat because I couldn't understand why two people were talking directly to my current situation. I've been going through a lot lately, but even in that I thank God for keeping me, providing for me and loving me...even when I didn't love myself. I had what is called an exit interview with the director of Art's After School...Rev Bev is a sweet woman and also has something wonderful to say. The purpose of the interview is to get your feedback about the program and also a time of talking and sharing with Rev Bev. I was looking forward to my time with her and it was much more than I expected. The entire conversation with her touched me in a special way, but one thing she said to me I think will change my life. She said, "Let go of your guilt!" I thought to myself what!!?? How does she know that I am consumed with guilt??? The only person that knows that is my mom and the two of them have never met... My mom has always told me that I have no reason to feel guilty...but I could never shake the feeling that I was a burden to my family. Wow...but here is a woman that I have known only since September...and she knew one of the things that has plagued me since childhood. All I can say is...that's God and I thank God for putting people in my life to help me and change me and mature me. Ok...so I thought that was enough...but no! Thursdays we have gospel choir practice and our director Greg is always giving speeches and I must say he is on point with what he says...sometimes he is a bit long, but that's Greg...got to love him. Greg said two powerful things last night...first he said, "Take deliberate and intentional steps to be where God wants you to be." Alright...that hit me!...practice continued and it was very successful and long. Than at the end of practice Greg says, "I have to say this, I will try and keep it to one minute." Alright that means at least ten minutes for Greg and it turn out to be like 15mins, but it was exactly what I needed to hear. Greg proceeded to say, "Don't let anything derail you from your goals, setbacks should not stop you, nothing should hinder you...If you know it is what God has for you do what you need to do to get there. Work hard, stay focus and achieve your goals. I want to hear you boast about your accomplishments, I want you all to be successful...If you are suppose to go to law school ,go to law school...don't let dissappointment stop you. If things aren't going the way you want things don't be discouraged...Maybe you won't reach you goal in the time you thought you were, but you will reach your goal stay focus." Hold up, wait a minute...why is Greg all in my business...did my roomie tell him about our conversation the night before??? (of course she didn't) This is just one more sign from God...God has placed Greg in my life to minister to me in my situation. When I was at one of my lowest points, words of encouragement first came from God, than my roomie (oh wow I see the growth in you daily), my mom (even though she misunderstood what I said at first and started to scream joyously), than Rev Bev, Greg, and other friends. I'm overwhelmed with gratitute!! That you God. God I believe and I pray that you continue to help me with my unbelief.