With all that has been going on I have really neglected this outlet, writing really helps me clear my mind and get focused... and plus I can say things here that I would not usually say out of my mouth.
I have realized that I have let other people and what they did or did not do determine my feelings and attitude. If someone was being 'good' to me...I was happy. If someone was treating me 'wrong'...I was sad. If someone looked at me the wrong way or said the wrong thing...I was angry. When I was in this emotional whirlwind I didn't know what damage I was doing to my soul. It is so unhealthy to allow someone else to negatively affect your mood...I have also come to realize that it is unhealthy to allow someone to positively affect your mood. By allowing someone to control whether you are happy or sad...means that you don't have peace within yourself. It is so easy to let emotions get you caught up, but emotions are so dangerous because they can cloud your better judgment. How many times have to looked back over a situation and wondered 'what was I thinking?'...well you weren't thinking and that's the problem, you let the way you felt at the moment determine your actions. When that moment was over and the dust had settled you saw how foolish your actions were. If you know going left would yield the best result and yet you choose to go right because of what it looks like...not because of what might happen down the road...You are being stupid. I must admit that I've been stupid about a lot of things, situation, people, places...etc. But we live and learn and than we get sense! I've learned to think first and feel later... Feelings come and go, but when I use my brain I am rarely taken down the wrong path. I feel much better... I've let it go, moved on and am confident in what I know is best and right.
To all those who have been wondering why I haven't been writing a lot lately (well, any lately), it's a mixture between...trying to graduation (that's done), getting rid of some negativity (in the process...I had more than I realized), making sure my next step after Philly was together (I will keep you posted on this), and finally spending some one on one time with people I have truly missed (this will continue, but I try and not let it hinder my sharing)!
So, people...I'm back!
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3 comments:
It seems like you were talking to me directly. I understand what you are sayin' and it would seem like wizdom before the warning in my heart. In the end leading wit your mind all the time seems like a defense mech. I mean if were not suppose to use our heart, our emotions. why do we have it.
I needed that sis..thanks..
that is so effin true.. wow, i never looked at it like that but thanks. wow..
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