Excited

Writing mood...Maybe it's because it's getting warmer outside, I'm not really sure but I'm really feeling like writing and sharing more. Or maybe it's because I'm really at peace right now, I can't really worry about the future because it's in God's hands. I'm also very happy, laughter is a wonderful medicine and I have been laughing so much lately and I am so grateful for joy. It's spring break at Drexel U and I went home to spend sometime with the fam...I aint realize how many people lived at 3415 Fallstaff Road. At this present moment since my older brother is home from Boston and I'm home from Philadelphia there are eleven people in this house round the clock! Yes, I said eleven colored folks all under one roof...let's just say it's loud in here. Oh yeah, and my dog Cheeno is here also...so we just got a full house! I love my family and chilling with them brings lots of good times, but oh wow...why does half of the Stewart/Wall family got to live here??!!?? I'm missing Philly a bit...mostly the people. Because like I always say, Philly is aight, it's the people there who keep me going. When you get along with people and you spend a significant amount of time with them, you really start to miss them when you are separated. I'm really excited about the upcoming spring term at Drexel. I know it's gonna be some great times and I will definitely live life to the fullest. Current mood...SO EXCITED!!!

B.Bailey

When I heard this song, I immediately had to create a blog for the one and only B.Bailey. I met B during my intial weeks at Drexel University back in the fall of 2002. This lady is amazing, although she and I have butted heads many times...we have much love for each other. Together we brought the hottest fashion shows to Drexel U and the Philadelphia area. B always has an encouraging word and she is a woman that fears God. This young woman is also a mother of three beautiful children: twins... BB and Will and the newest addition baby Sean. B...I love you and I've got your back for life. Thank you for always encouraging me to stay true to what I believe in no matter what. Your notes regularly lift my spirits and keep me motivated. I dedicate this song to you... (Fantasia definitely had a woman like you in mind when she was singing this song.)

[chorus]

B-A-B-Y M-A-M-A This goes out to all my baby mamas

This goes out to all my baby mamas

B-A-B-Y M-A-M-A This goes out to all my baby mamas

I got love for all my baby mamas
It’s about time we had our own song

Don’t know what took so longCuz now-a-days it like a badge of honor

To be a baby mamaI see ya payin’ ya bills

I see ya workin’ ya jobI see ya goin’ to school

And girl I know it’s hard

And even though ya fed up

With makin’ beds upGirl, keep ya head up

All my B-A-B-Y M-A-M-A

This goes out to all my baby mamas

This goes out to all my baby mamas

B-A-B-Y M-A-M-A

This goes out to all my baby mamas

I got love for all my baby mamas
I see you get that support check in the mail

Ya open it and your like “What the...”

You say “This ain’t even half of daycare”

Sayin to yourself “This here ain’t fair”

And all my girls who don’t get no help

Who gotta do everything by yourself

Remember: What don’t kill you can only make you stronger

My baby mama…
[chorus]B-A-B-Y M-A-M-A

This goes out to all my baby mamas

This goes out to all my baby mamas

B-A-B-Y M-A-M-A

This goes out to all my baby mamas

I got love for all my baby mamas
Cuz we the backbone (of the hood)I always knew that (that we could)

We can go anywhere, we can do anything

I know we can make it if we dream

And I think it should be a holiday

For single mothers tryin’ to make a way

But until then Here is your song Show some love to my….
[chorus]B-A-B-Y M-A-M-A

This goes out to all my baby mamas

This goes out to all my baby mamas

B-A-B-Y M-A-M-A

This goes out to all my baby mamas

I got love for all my baby mamas

B...I know you are going do big things. Keep working towards your goals. Know that you have so many people in your corner, ready to do whatever we can to see you succeed. So much love and Respect! ~Z~

Erica Renee...

I can barely compose myself to write this post...

My dear Er,

I love you so much!!! You have inspired me over these past several years to be the best person I can be. You have encouraged me to love myself no matter what others may say. Many people don't know all of the internal demons I battle with on a daily basis...you give me the strength to the see the beauty I possess inside and outside. Next year is going be so very different...who am I gonna be able to talk to at 2:15 in the morning??? I'm not sad that I will be soon leaving, because I know we will share a lifetime of joy together. I mean, who else will be able to teach my children how to burn toast??!!! (lol) sike, I'm j/k I know you are on your way to being a culinary master! When I'm sick, you jump right into Nurse Robinson mode...and I thank you for that. My appreciation for all that you do and all that you are can never be expressed in words. I know you think of me as this strong person, fearless and able to face any...(and of course that's me). But no honestly, there have been times when I wanted to give up, life was so hard and my heart hurt...but your sweetness and gentle hugs, and the love of God that shines through you brought me to a better place. (oh my, I have to take a break from typing, the tears are crazy!!!) I love you Erica...and thank you so very much for being a friend and loving me even when I was unlovable. Never doubt the immeasurable impact that you have in people's lives...never doubt the gifts and talents God has placed in you. You are a world-changer. I am so proud to say that I know you. Keeping being you! Whether times are bad, good or great you know that you can count on me. Even though we will soon be separated by space, I truly believe God has connected our hearts for a lifetime. We've been through some interesting times together, I will carry the memories with me for a lifetime. Thank you for sharing you life with me.

LYLAS,

Zee

Golden

Jill Scott stays speaking truth...this is my theme song for the '05!!!

[Intro:]

Heyyy, Ohh, Heyyy, Yeah, Ohh, Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeahhhh

[Verse 1]

I'm taking my freedom,Pulling it off the shelf,Putting it on my chain,Wear it around my neck,I'm taking my freedom,Putting it in my car,Wherever I choose to go,It will take me far.

[Chorus]

I'm livin' my life like it's goldenLivin' my life like it's golden, Livin' my life like it's golden, golden,Livin' my life like it's golden, Livin' my life like it's golden, golden,

[Verse 2]

I'm taking my own freedom Putting it in my song,Singing loud and strong,Grooving all day long,I'm taking my freedom,Putting it in my stroll,I'll be high-steppin' y'all,Letting the joy unfold,

[Chorus]

I'm holding on to my freedom,Can't take it from me,I was born into it,It comes naturally,I'm strumming my own freedom,Playing the god in me,Representing his glory,Hope he's proud of me,

[Bridge]

I'm living my life like its golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, Livin' my life like it's golden,It really matters to me, Ohhh

Tomorrow is not promise...live for today, don't compromise yourself for anything, anybody, because tomorrow may never come and you might never get the change to make things right...

Dedicated to my Baby...

Hey baby,

You know I love you with all I have and that I will do anything for you. Like I said, even when I leave this summer I will only be a phone call and 1.5 hours away. Please believe I have no problem coming up here and handling business!!! I must truly say that I am blessed to have you in my life. You are energetic, beautiful, outgoing, intelligent, dedicated, driven, fearless, funny, compassionate, giving, loving...(I could go on and on). What did I do before you came into my life two years ago??? Let me not think about that, because life without you just wouldn't be the same. Baby, please remember never to allow anybody to make you insecure or doubt yourself. You are an amazing person and anyone that knows you will have no choice but to love you. People can talk, let them...you are so special that you stay on their mind. They don't want to admit that fact, but without you in their lives, their lives would be dull. Keep being yourself! I've got ya back until the day I leave this earth! My love for you can not be expressed in words.

Many people are wondering who this little letter is in reference to....well... if you don't know than it obviously aint for you...

Week 10

This past week was entirely too busy, but I'm thankful I made it through. Only two finals next week, a paper and than I have a short break. Well actually I won't have any break because I will be spending my time working on my senior project. I'm really excited...I'm creating a documentary on the communication style of African American women over the past 100 years. I'm also a bit nervous because I have never done anything like this before and I want it to be a great piece of history. I must say even though I had a busy week, I think I smiled more than I have smiled in a long time during this past week. I really have the greatest support system. Last Saturday my dad, mom and little sister came up to Philly for the gospel choir's 27th anniversary, I haven't seen them since December so it was wonderful to see them. I was told that I had a huge smile on my face all night...and that is surprising because I was really upset because of the lack of organization we were experiencing dealing with the concert. But anyways, being around family and friends always brings me joy. So many of my people came out to support us at the concert and that was so overwhelming. I received so much love, hugs and congrats that evening...I was pumped for days. This past week I have been on my grind, but even in that I had to find time for a little bit of fun. Er and I went to the 5spot on Wednesday night and had a great time, listening to live music, dancing and chilling with some people. But wow...I could barely get up for my 8am class on Thursday...but of course I was on time, on task and on that mission to learn. I'm really feel some joy right now...getting to know new people, new experiences...and my boys Dre and Tex will be back at the end of the month (the joy I feel about their return can not be expressed in words!!!!) Nobody can bring me down from this high!!! I'm so high on life and so thankful to be living, learning and loving.

Back In This

I think I'm back...I had a few moments when I was just not feeling like it, I just wasn't into hanging. My people got really mad at me...they came at my neck like I had said, "I hate you and don't wanna be around you (sidenote: I never said anything like this)!" Aight...I'm back in the swing of things. Loving this life and feeling grateful for all the people in my life. I've really been working hard, sometimes hardly working...but in the end all my things get done. It's time to be laid back and have some fun. Was feeling a bit overwhelmed with life and the people around...but now I'm back in full effect! My months here at Drexel are quickly coming to an end and I must make some more lasting memories. This past weekend was eventful...we had a board meeting on Friday night, DUGC on Saturday afternoon, NSBE banquet on Saturday evening. The NBSE banquet was a wonderful event, I was glad to be apart of such a wonderful event that honored some wonderful African American in the Philadelphia and Drexel communities. It is great to be able to support friends and see them succeed...I was so proud of my NSBE people, especially my boy B and my girl Er. Just wanted to let you all know that I may have a moment or two when I need some time to myself...but regardless of what is going on, I have your back for life! ~Much Love~